Ready... Or Not?

This Sunday I leave for training in Chicago and I am not sure I am ready, or if I ever would be.  For the past 12  or so months I have been a SAHM to Austin.  To be honest I never really thought that I was the stay at home mom type.  Not that I am so career driven, but I just didn't know if I had what it takes to entertain a kid all day long.  After getting laid off right before I was about to deliver I kind of had no choice but to stay at home for awhile with my new baby and over time I grew to love it.  How can you not love staying home with your favorite person in the world and watching them discover everything.   As great as it was 95% of the time, there were days when I wanted to pull my hair out.  You know the days when babies are whiny for no reason and  you have run out of ideas on how to help.  Luckily those were few and far between and most of our days were spent at playgroups, playing with toys, or visiting with friends and family. As Austin started nearing the one year mark I started wondering if I should get a part time job to allow him and I to be more social.  The problem was that I didn't know what I wanted to do and I wanted to make it worth my while.  Oddly enough my old co worker from Takeda called me a few days later and asked if I would be interested in doing a job share with her.   The same territory and manager as before, but with one new product.  Basically she would work half the week and I would work half the week.  I told her I would think about it.  I talked it over with Jeff and he was all for it.  He said it was the best of both worlds, because I got to have Kim time but I could also spend the majority of my time with Austin.  So I accepted the job and my next chapter will be titled Working Mom.  Am I ready?  I don't know, but here we go.  Sunday night I start training in Chicago.  I will be gone about 3 weeks over the next month and a half.  I keep telling myself the training will be the worst part.  Jeff and I go away for the weekend all of the time, but never this much.  I also keep telling myself that this job is my best case scenario and it will be good for my family.  I am hoping that I am right.  Change has never been one of my strong points.